I can't get over it

Two films ALWAYS make me cry.  New Years Eye and Chelat Girl.  So I am sitting here, watching them on my laptop.  Crying.  Why am I crying?  Because I can't get over the dead of my ex, 11 years ago.  I've just been to visit her daughter, who I have trouble motivating myself to visit, because of the anxieties that seeing her creates.  It brings back all of those feelings of watching her mother die. She died from breast cancer, we basically had 6 months notice, and she died in 5 months.  Everyone was grieving.

After visiting the daughter, I had to stop the car, just to relax.  My anxiety is causing some problems, now and then.  I really need to work on that, I've fixed it before.  I can do it again.